A year from now, I hope I remember why I described these past 12 months as the hardest of my life, and I hope I have the strength then—and forever—to keep from making the same decisions that led me here once. I hope I have the strength to keep seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, no matter how dim it may seem some days, and I hope I have the wearwithall to keep putting one foot in front of the other to reach it, regardless of how long the journey sometimes feels.
A year from now, I hope I remember that stopping by a beloved teacher's yoga class was all I needed one dreary, difficult Monday to feel better.
A year from now, I hope I remember that taking a week off running, even in the midst of a training cycle, is good for the soul and body when both are screaming that that's what they need. A year from now, hopefully when I'm back on course and finding love and joy in this hobby, I hope I remember to feel grateful for the day I laced up again and set myself on track.
A year from now, I hope I remember the excitement my two dear friends and I feel while preparing to launch a big project that is so close to our hearts. I hope I remember this feeling of anticipation as we prepare for go day. I hope I never, ever forget how much fun it is to collaborate and share ideas with these women and that they supported me, picked up the slack when I couldn't be 100% present.
A year from now, I hope I remember what it felt like to feel lost, ungrounded, and foreign to myself, but how a select few people were always able to remind me of who I am, where I come from, where I'm going, and that I deserve to be loved and cared for when I need it. I especially hope I remember that it's okay to need to be cared for sometimes, and I hope I remember how to let it be so.
I hope I remember that every bad day, every hard moment, every difficult decision, every regret was all leading to where I am, where I will be, one year from today. I hope I remember every good, beautiful, amazing, sweet, precious thing that was part of that journey too.
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