dear thought catalog,
this conversation is a long time coming. before i go any further, i just want you to know - this is going to hurt me more than it's going to hurt you. i can say that with 100% certainty. that doesn't make it any easier for me to say these things to you. believe me, i wish i didn't have to. but we've reached a crossroads and now, unfortunately, i have no other choice.
what a whirlwind romance we've had. you had me at hello. you swept me off of my feet and in a moment, i was yours. immediately, i didn't understand how i had ever lived without you. you were my saving grace, my green light, my hero.i think we need to spend some time apart. don't get me wrong. i love you to the end of the earth and back. you bring me constant joy and happiness. you make me think. you force me to reflect on things and face truths about myself i otherwise wouldn't have the strength to. you make me laugh. you calm me down when i'm feeling stressed. you say exactly what i'm thinking. you slap me in the face with realities i'm afraid to, but must, face - in a loving way. you have all these insights into my soul, and i can't help but wonder if you have a cheat sheet on my mind. you just get me, tc. you always know the right thing to say, and you're there for me whenever i need you, without fail. all this, and you ask for nothing in return from me. you are, truly, perfect.
but i think it's time for us to start seeing other people, and spending a little less time together. i wish it didn't have to be this way, but i can't keep neglecting the rest of my life for you. i have a job, you know. and i have deadlines to meet. i have writing to do that has to take place on my computer, which also happens to be where you live. believe me, it will be so hard to be in your neighborhood and not wonder what you're doing, or what you're saying, or if you're thinking of me. but i have to be strong. we have to be strong.
from now on, you have to promise to keep your temptations to yourself. at least until i'm finished with keeping the rest of my life together. i promise to still make some time for you every night, but it simply can't be as much time as we used to spend together.
these words are coming from a place of love. you did nothing wrong. it's me, i swear. people usually lie when they say "it's not you, it's me," but i'm telling you the truth. you are perfect, and in fact, too good for me. i can't handle all your goodness in a mature, healthy way. so this is what we have to do.
stay gold.
love always,
alyssa
7 comments:
This is hilarious! I'm glad I'm not the only one that has a love/hate relationship with TC. Some great stuff, some not so great, but all pretty entertaining. Good luck with your break up, I would recommend chocolate.
I've never heard of TC but of course I'll have to check it out. I'm going to get sucked in aren't I?
randy, we need to stop sharing love interests haha.. i'm heading out to the store in a bit to pick up the fixins for red velvet cupcakes, hopefully that will help me make it through!
jack.. i almost want to tell you not to even bother because yes, yes you will, get sucked in. but it's so wonderful i wouldn't want to deprive you of it. just remember my caution ;)
Haha, I love most of the stuff on Thought Catalog! I actually feel like I need to spend MORE time on there!
it's amazing, which is why it's so dangerous for me. i just keep clicking and before i know it i've spent hours on it and gotten absolutely no writing done!
This is funny. I too love TC. Some of it's bad. But when it's good, it's really good. And it always seems to be something that completely relates to my life at that very moment.
Breakups are tough.
you know, a few people have said to me there's a lot of bad there too, but i can't say i really agree! maybe it's just because i only read articles with titles that appeal to me or by a few writers who i really love. but you're right, it's always shockingly relevant to whatever i'm going through. and yes, breakups are tough. i haven't really stuck to this breakup very well haha it's more of a "break"
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