Thursday, February 16, 2012

Quiver

Sighs and screams and waves and rushes and highs and lows and you bring me up and you take me down and I lose my breath and I lose my head and I lose myself and you're lost inside me.

I'm lost in you I've lost my head I can't find my body I can't find the space and my fingers scratch and claw and grab and reach and try and I can't find my way and I'm lost inside you.

I rise and fall and crest and crash and all these things happen when you engrave your touch in me and mark me yours, of course, I'm yours, I'm here again and of course you bring me back to this edge the sharp edge and I'm teetering on it and one whisper and I fall and I'm over the edge and I fall.

Whisper nothing say nothing don't say one word not one word more your voice carries the weight of everything of my heart of my need of my need to let go and let me go and don't let go I'll fall I'll be gone over the edge don't let me go.

I quiver and I shake and you make me quiver and you make me lose my head and I can't lose my head not here not now not this high not when you've brought me up so high look how far the fall is when you have me so high and I'm quivering and you're whispering and it's enough to make me fall.

I'll jump I'll go I'll let go before you can let me go and you'll let me go and I'll die by my own hand, not yours, not yours but yours is the one that brought me here brought me so high and held me so close to the edge and I'm losing my balance and I'm falling.

I'm falling crashing tumbling losing myself because I'm lost where are you you're lost in me and your touch is still here on me falling with me you're falling with me we're tangled and I've taken you down too and there we go and here we go and the end is almost here and I look up and I open my eyes and I see and I see you and you're still here back on earth here on the ground and you're still here.

The high so high it would make me cry and I won't you're still here and you brought me here and your hands your touch your fingers your whisper your taste your tongue your heartbeat and you made all yours mine and my heartbeat matches yours look how we match listen to it it's mine and it's yours and you did this to me.

My eyes close when we're safe but there's no safe I can't be safe when you're so close close enough to engulf me again and engulf me in the fire and fine okay okay I'll do it I'll let go with you again let's go let's get high and go back to the edge maybe once just once maybe just once more.

10 comments:

Lazidaisical said...

Wow.

What a rush :)

Random Girl said...

I second that WOW!! This was quite a ride...it gave me anxiety and made me what to rush in and run away at the same time.

Nicki said...

No punctuation was the PERFECT choice for this.

alyssa said...

to write, as well! :)

alyssa said...

thanks! it's doing its job then ;)

alyssa said...

thanks!! when it comes like that there's no sense in interrupting the stream, i find :)

Daniel Perrucci said...

Loved it Alyssa, I just couldn't stop reading. And the lack of punctuation was a brilliant decision! Thirteen thumbs up!

alyssa said...

thanks so much dan :)

AccordingtoJewels said...

Found you through Katsidhe and am so glad that I did! I also see that you are the recipient of the BILF award that I created! ;)

I loved this post. I was breathless reading and I agree that the lack of punctuation worked so well. I was swept up in this. I wanted more and then I wanted to look away. Amazingly done!

alyssa said...

an award that i accepted with shock and awe :) thanks so much for stopping by and for your kindest of words!! xx