Moving On

It's been just over a month since I left the job I'd been at for more than three years. As I write this, it's been just over two hours since I learned I wasn't selected for what I have come to refer over the last few weeks as my dream job. Luckily, it's been two weeks since I started on a freelance assignment where I'm earning enough to support myself during this interim.

For a long time, I'd been saying I wasn't sure what I really wanted to do. What my dream job was. And then I interviewed for a company I've been wanting to work for, a little wish I sort of kept in the back of my mind, for years. And I had another interview, and then another, and another. And then they told me I was in the top two. And I wanted it so, so, so badly. Everything about it. The office and location. The work and industry. The people. And I really, really thought I was going to get it. (I mean, on my last interview I was all but told it was mine. So.)

And now, I'm more disappointed than I have been in a really long time.

On the bright side, I'm not scared. I'm not desperate and I'm not panicked. I'm safe. But I am really disappointed.

I know this happens all the time. People get passed over for jobs and opportunities. I've been on job interviews that have resulted in absolutely nothing—not even the courtesy of a rejection notice (which should be illegal, in my opinion). People face unemployment for weeks, months, years with no safety net. No backup plan. I'm beyond fortunate that that doesn't describe me right now, and I know that.

But I'm still really disappointed. Because now, I don't really know what to do. Not in terms of paying my rent and bills, but in terms of what I'm after. See, the dream job wasn't my dream job because of the job description. It was the company. And no, there isn't another company like that one. This feels like a massive missed opportunity that I have no concept of how to recreate.

This isn't like a blown race where I can train again, train harder, train smarter, and go out and tackle the distance and do better next time. This isn't like a rejected manuscript where I can revise and resubmit or query to 10 new literary agents every day. This is, for this particular goal, the very end of the road.

The good news is that I'm really good at creating goals. Sometimes I'm even good at achieving them. 

So I'm going back to the drawing board. I'm keeping up with my passion projects. I'm doing good work where I'm working now, and I'm keeping my options open. I'm keeping my eyes open. 
Sorry to write such a bummer post on a Friday, but this is what's going on today. Well, there's a lot going on lately, but this is the big thing. Thanks for letting me talk about what my life looks like right now.

I can always count on you guys for some hope and happiness. Got a joke or funny story for me? Or an anecdote about a time where bad news turned out to be for the best? I'll take anything you got.

Happy Friday.

Comments

  1. I'm so sorry to hear you didn't get the job - I've been that girl that was top 2 before only to lose out and it just means that something better is on the horizon!!! Stay just as positive as you are now! xo, Biana -BlovedBoston

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  2. sorry to hear that, A...but i do believe that everything happens for a reason so that must mean something better is on it's way! stay positive xoxoxo

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  3. That sucks. Interviewing is always tough. Quotes for you: "The lure of the distant and difficult is deceptive. The great opportunity is where you are." -John Burroughs "A pessimist sees the difficulty in every opportunity; an optimist sees the opportunity in every difficulty." -Winston Churchill

    My sisters used to make a "wall of shame" every time they were job hunting or trying to get into college. After getting into college, the one sister was hunting for scholarships and she applied to everything she could get her hands on. One rejection letter was particularly entertaining as it thanked her for her interest, but politely informed her that the scholarship was typically reserved for African American males. She'd applied to a fraternity by mistake.

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  4. Sorry you didn't get the job. Maybe in your process of making a new goal you will come across a potential career opportunity even more interesting to you.
    I heard this joke on the radio this morning: What do you call a clock on a belt? A waist of time. Haha its terrible I know. Hope you have a great weekend!

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  5. oh BOOOO. that sucks donkey balls. ugh. They are so stupid and are going to regret that decision majorly because you are awesome. I hope they change their mind or something better comes along. Hugs girl.

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  6. So sorry the job didn't work out for you, it makes it that much more disappointing when it keeps going on and on and on with interviews and informal mentions of basically having a job-- only to not end up with it in the end. You have so much insight over the bigger picture and I know that amazing things are coming your way.

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  7. I'm sorry about the job, that is such a tough feeling. I was passed over for a job eight years ago that I really thought I wanted and it was pretty devastating at the time. I truly believe that something better is OUT there for you and maybe you'll find your NEW dream job soon. Best wishes and good luck :)!

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  8. Huge hugs and love coming your way from Tennessee. I can't try to pretend like this sadness and disappointment will go away anytime soon, but I can cheer you on in setting new goals, new dreams and approaching new challenges. If anyone can turn shit into gold it's you. (make you laugh at all?)

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  9. What a bummer. I'm sorry you missed out on this job. Maybe just keep your eye on the company for future open positions? Hang in there!

    Completely unrelated, but a funny story to make you laugh. My daughter and I were in a public restroom with an automatic paper towel dispenser. While I was washing my hands, she grabbed the paper towel that was already hanging there. Another one popped out, so she took that one too and started drying her hands. But when the third one popped out, she looked at it, slightly perplexed, and said "No thank you!" :o)

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  10. I totally agree about the lack of courtesy notice in job app process. They make you jump through a zillion hoops and then radio silence? How rude. No one wants to hear "no" but no one wants to be left twisting in the wind either. Sorry it didn't work out for you this time. My BF just got passed over for a really great job that would have helped us both out and it stung so bad. Just don't let it keep you down for too long, I know you wouldn't let that happen!

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  11. Oh no. I am so sorry that you didn't get the job. Disappointment is the worst feeling ever. Just stay positive and realize that everything happens for a reason! xo

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  12. I'm so sorry to hear about the job. That sucks ass. And the lack of notification is utterly unprofessional and I hate people and companies who do that.

    Whatever you do, don't take the rejection personally. You are crazy smart and talented and it truly is their loss. And as far as dream jobs, there's probably one out there that you didn't even know was your dream job and you won't know it until it falls in your lap.

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  13. I'm really sorry to hear that you didn't get the position. Which company was it if I may ask? Also, I'm (recently) very much of the "this or better" mindset. Sure I have a plan, and a goal, but perhaps you didn't get this because there IS something better on the horizon. Something you didn't even consider. Don't let disappointment cloud you. Something better is coming. I feel it.

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  14. I'm really sorry. It absolutely sucks to be so disappointed with the outcome of something and have no recourse. It's like you just have to sit with that feeling and work through it. I hate when people say stuff to me like this is what builds character and makes you stronger...but they're not wrong. That's not wrong. And sometimes it's the only silver lining in a situation.

    My wishes for you: to hang in there - to work through - to not beat yourself up when other factors are at play - to be kind to you and to take time to feel it and then to look forward.

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  15. Having been employed with Company for a mere 8 months, I remember the sting of the rejection letters and the rage that came from not being informed at all. That said, I'm sorry they turned down your badassary, for them not you. As everyone else has said, something better is coming.
    Moving on to funnies:
    What do you call a fish with no eyes? FSH.
    How do you have a party in outer space? You planet.
    Why did the can crusher quit his job? Because it was soda pressing.

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  17. Such a bummer to be excited about something like. You try not to get your hopes up when there is someone else in the running but you cant help it. Then it is the biggest let down when it doesn't happen. But I am here to tell you I have been there done that. It does suck but that just means there is something better out there for you that you don't even know about yet!!!

    Two pretzels walk down an alley, one was a salted!

    What do you call a bear with no teeth? A gummy bear!!!

    A man walked in to a bar and said OUCH!

    Clearly I am a fan of the corny elementary school jokes. Sorry about that. - See more at: http://alyssagoesbang.blogspot.com/2015/08/moving-on.html?showComment=1440188870093#c8246998739639596397

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  18. It's not a bummer post. Well, it is a bummer post, but it's real life too. And, I'm inspired by you sharing your real feelings and disappointment. Hopefully something will come along that inspires you, challenges you, and shows you that an even more amazing opportunity was out there for you!

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  19. I'm sorry, girl. I can definitely say that I've been there for, and it does hurt. But something better has always come along. I'm confident it will for you, too. :)

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  20. Not a bummer post at all. I understand! Remember I didn't meet you last October to race home for my "dream job" interview only to NOT get it. Well months later I got a way better job. Keep trucking my friend. Hugs and I have two ears if you need them :)

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  21. Damn girl, I'm sorry you didn't get it. But you went for it, and gave it your all, and that alone is something to be proud of. I know it's cliche and corny, but I really do believe everything happens for a reason, and the fact that this didn't work out just means that it wasn't the best option for you right now and something better WILL come along!! Keep your head up girl!

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  22. "I'm really good at creating goals. Sometimes I'm even good at achieving them." You always make me smile Alyssa! I love how real your writing is. You wrote a post a little while back when you'd left your job, I believe, that resonated so much with me but I never made the time to comment on it. I just want to let you know that I enjoy following your journey, the highs and the lows, and relate to what you're going through so much. Keep your chin up, girl, I have no doubt that great things will come your way!

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