I have kind of a confession: I'm not doing exactly great right now. Great things are happening in my life, and some parts of my world are working and feeling great. But on the whole? "Great" isn't the word to use.
To be frank, my employment/work/whatever you want to call it situation is in flux in a scary way, and I'm not really certain of what's going to happen. I'm lucky and grateful to be teaching two regular classes per week, hopefully building a third very soon, and subbing classes left and right. But contrary to popular belief, baby yoga teachers don't really roll in the big bucks. I absolutely love working at Bad Yogi, but it's still part time. And I have a few ongoing contracts, but each comes with its own frustrations and challenges and some of those frustrations and challenges are related to their payment policies (or lack thereof). On top of it all, I'm apparently unhireable, as I've sent out by my estimate 34,000 resumes and gotten two interviews and zero responses or follow-ups. I've pitched countless editors, given away dozens of free ideas, and received not a single peep in response. I'm exhausted, and I'm scared.
I'm not telling you this for pity or sympathy. I'm telling you this because it's real, its what's going on in my life, it's what I'm worried about, and it's what's keeping me from devoting more time, energy, and attention to blog world. But even while this dark cloud is looming over me, I'm doing my best to enjoy each day and find lightness within it all. I don't want to be one of those bloggers who pretends life is roses 24/7, but I also don't want to wallow or surrender to this problem—this problem that worrying will do nothing to solve.
On the one hand, I feel like I've exhausted all my options and there's nothing left to do but sit around and wait. On the other, I know that necessity is the mother of invention. And I know that there is never going to be a "good" time to take yet another leap and go after something I want, but there is also never a good time to stagnate.
What to do while you're waiting
Work on your handstand, your hollow back, your scorpion. Not because yoga is about acrobatics, or because nailing these poses means being "good at yoga." But because twisting up your body is sometimes the only way to unwind your mind. Because bending at the back means opening up the heart and sometimes a release of the heart chakra is exactly what your soul calls for.
Celebrate your 16 weeks of exploration and education with your new yoga family. Gather with your YTT classmates for red wine, tiny tattoos, delicious empanadas, deep belly laughs, and future plans.
Go for a run. Hate it, feel like a failure. Then do it again, and remember why you did it at all. (Remember also that next week is the last of the month, which means it's time for Training for Tuesday once again!)
Have an early birthday celebration with family, and eat leftover carrot cake for days. Drink every beverage out of your new mug from mom and remember the wisdom of Professor Dumbledore with each sip.
Insure yourself and get on the hunt for teaching time slots, even when you realize there is no shortage of great teachers in your area. Realize that the best you can do is teach your best class each time, be yourself, be a good source of energy, and people will gravitate naturally toward your class. Recognize a few more faces each week and realize holy crap—you've got regulars. Feel good and embrace it, and try to breathe in all that goodness for 75 minutes each time you teach, letting nothing else interfere with your good class vibes.
Set up a business website. Keep it private for now, but set a date. Get ready to launch. Know what you're doing. Know it's good. Know it in your bones that you're on the right track. Prepare. Work. Trust.
Make plans. Make outlines. Make lists. Sketch, recruit helpers, envision it all coming together. Know it will.