Thursday Thoughts Vol. 4
1. I decided this week to stop publishing my Sunday Sweats posts—after 90 weeks of posting them each Sunday (and a few Mondays). I know most people here didn't care much for reading them; that's not why I really posted them to begin with. I used them to journal my runs, but I was thinking about it, and I keep track of all my workouts in Garmin and my calendar anyway. I can write notes about them there. And I don't really want to worry about getting them up Sunday nights anymore. It was a weird thing that I felt super committed to, for no real good reason, and I'm all about cutting back on the never-ending list of things to do lately.
2. Which sort of relates to my general feeling of fuzziness lately. All during Mercury retrograde (which thankfully ended last week), I felt so ungrounded and like I was constantly in my head but not at all in the real world. On Sunday, as I pulled into my parking spot at home after teaching yoga I turned to David and went, "Did I lock the door to the studio?" Long story short, I ended up driving the 20 minutes back to the studio to double check (it was locked) and felt like a nut. Friday morning, as I left to take a yoga class, I was sitting in my car literally not sure if I had CLOSED my apartment door. I'm not usually this forgetful or panicked about this kind of stuff, but it was a weird few days. I don't know if giving myself less to do will help, but hopefully shedding away some of the things I'm constantly thinking about or organizing in my brain will help me feel more grounded in each moment. Fingers crossed.
3. I'm almost out of my third week in the new gig. It's going well—I'm reasonably busy (or, more accurately, assigned with tasks), I'm being paid a fair wage for my skills and work, and I'm not being treated like an idiot or lesser human. All in all, a huge step up from my last few roles! Because it is only a short-term initial contract, I'm trying to stay in the "one day at a time" mindset, and have a few different ideas for next steps in mind depending on whether or not my contract extends. But mostly, just trying to remain in the now and focus on the goals in my immediate future that I'm looking forward to crushing!
4. I'm thinking about hosting a blog challenge of sorts. More like a link-up with prompts, but a little bit different from anything I've ever seen before. My goal is to give my blogging routine a refresh and a new jump-start and hopefully give some others the same. But I think I'm too small for it. I'm probably going to do it anyway, so maybe be on the look-out for that.
5. I didn't watch Monday night's first presidential debate. You're horrified, I know. I can see it. The funny thing is, to people who know me in real life, this might be surprising because of my unrelenting political awareness, my personal campaigns to make registered voters of all my friends, and the way my political and social beliefs govern my day to day decisions, including where I shop. On the internet, this is a lesser-known thing about me because I rarely discuss it. Not because I'm afraid to be challenged, or because I'm not convicted in my beliefs. I'm not, and I am. But I tire of screaming about it all the damn time. When something needs to be said, I'll say it. But here in blogland, luckily there's Steph who always beats me to saying what needs to be said and I can't ever think of a point she's missed.
Anyway, the debate. Here's the thing. I know who I'm voting for. There is nothing that will change that, because my vote has been decided based upon knowledge of the American and global political system, the values and ethics that are most important to me, and the desire to protect my country and all the people in it. There is only one way to vote when those things are taken into consideration, as far as I'm concerned. To recognize the alternative as an actual alternative is to give it a dignity it doesn't deserve, and I can't believe that we let it get this far without the right people standing up and saying "ARE WE F^$*ING KIDDING HERE?!" And to be completely honest, I fly off the handle and become a very, very angry person (and that person takes a longer-than-comfortable amount of time to settle down) when I have to hear his voice, listen to him miss the point so obtusely, watch him degrade and disrespect people who have earned the base level of human respect, and just wholly and completely fail to understand the very point and gravity of the job for which he's applying. I wasn't up for that on Monday night, so I got the Cliff's Notes in print the next day. I'm satisfied with that.
6. I'll stay on this little soapbox just long enough to remind you to register to vote. Most of you still have time. Go here to do it, and then show up to your polling place on Tuesday, November 8, and stand in line for however long it takes to get to that voting booth and participate in this national institution, the right that was fought for on your behalf.
7. I wouldn't normally have said something, but the other day, my little brother posted this on Facebook. (Know that his spelling and grammar hits me where it hurts, too, but the sentiment remains ever as strong.)
He received beautiful, sweet, heartfelt comments, and when I shared the post on my page, I was touched by the number of comments and texts I received from friends, some of whom who wouldn't know my mom from Adam, asking about her and sharing positive energy our way. Luckily, my mom isn't facing anything terminal, but she's been in pain and severe discomfort (to put it mildly) and with major question marks hanging over her head for just too long. I shared some of these comments of concern with her and I know the positive energy is reaching her and doing wonders for her mental state right now. Bottom line: Never underestimate the value of telling someone they're special, or opening yourself up to loving words and thoughts.
Much as I hate to sign off on an odd number, I think I'm good for today. Linking up for the first time with Kristin & Joey!