Nothing Ventured, Nothing Gained

A year from now, I hope I remember that I knew today it could still get worse. I also hope I remember that even with that knowledge, I tried to be optimistic. I tried to accept what is. I tried to continue regardless and I never fell apart completely. I felt peace in the waiting period. I stayed the course. And if I can do all that in the midst of the most unrelentingly challenging year of my life to date, I can do it again if life throws me (or I throw myself into, unwittingly or not) these circumstances again.

A year from now, I hope I remember why I described these past 12 months as the hardest of my life, and I hope I have the strength then—and forever—to keep from making the same decisions that led me here once. I hope I have the strength to keep seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, no matter how dim it may seem some days, and I hope I have the wearwithall to keep putting one foot in front of the other to reach it, regardless of how long the journey sometimes feels.

A year from now, I hope I remember that stopping by a beloved teacher's yoga class was all I needed one dreary, difficult Monday to feel better.

A year from now, I hope I remember that taking a week off running, even in the midst of a training cycle, is good for the soul and body when both are screaming that that's what they need. A year from now, hopefully when I'm back on course and finding love and joy in this hobby, I hope I remember to feel grateful for the day I laced up again and set myself on track.

A year from now, I hope I remember the excitement my two dear friends and I feel while preparing to launch a big project that is so close to our hearts. I hope I remember this feeling of anticipation as we prepare for go day. I hope I never, ever forget how much fun it is to collaborate and share ideas with these women and that they supported me, picked up the slack when I couldn't be 100% present.

A year from now, I hope I remember what it felt like to feel lost, ungrounded, and foreign to myself, but how a select few people were always able to remind me of who I am, where I come from, where I'm going, and that I deserve to be loved and cared for when I need it. I especially hope I remember that it's okay to need to be cared for sometimes, and I hope I remember how to let it be so.

I hope I remember that every bad day, every hard moment, every difficult decision, every regret was all leading to where I am, where I will be, one year from today. I hope I remember every good, beautiful, amazing, sweet, precious thing that was part of that journey too.

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Comments

  1. I really like the format of this post. I've been thinking about this prompt a lot because right now there's nothing super fantastic happening in my life. In the last 6 months I ended a serious relationship, was turned down for a job I really wanted and everything has just sort of been an uphill climb. I know I'll get to the top of the mountain eventually but I'm not really sure where I'm headed right now.

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  2. "I hope I remember that every bad day, every hard moment, every difficult decision, every regret was all leading to where I am, where I will be, one year from today. " --That is EVERYTHING! Good luck on your launch with your collab with friends! Cant wait to hear more!

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  3. I love reflection posts. We never know where life is going to go and when it's going to get hard. When we can reflect on the hard times, the good things seem even better. I feel like I lived a similar year with lots of tough moments. I also have trucked through and I can't wait to see what next year brings!

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  4. oh a big project, how exciting! i hope you remember all this as well my dear, and i hope that the next 365 days are as fabulous as you :)

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  5. A big project?! Eek, so fun! I love how blogging gives us a nice place to remember all these important emotions that we otherwise could so easily forget. Big love and many hugs to you! <3

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  6. Really love the writing on this post. And of course hoping all the same things for you.

    And this reminds me of one of my favorites:
    In the midst of winter, I found there was, within me, an invincible summer. - Camus

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  7. I think you will remember all of those feelings and be cheersing to where you are a year from now!! xo, biana - BlovedBoston

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  8. Hugs. Can't wait to hear more about your project!

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  9. YES to the week off of your current activity...i often berate myself for taking a few days off when i'm sick but even a small break will reenergize you and remind you why you love it so much.

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  10. I really love this, especially the last one. I can't wait to hear about the project.

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  11. I love this post. It really inspired me. It can be so easy to forget that even the "bad" things can truly change us and bring us to where we are. I believe that everything happens for a reason. What a beautiful post.

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